Tuesday, February 28, 2006

"she..hu made...me"

tender hand
a hand of hope
touched me ,my soul wen i was not in existance
she nutured me n dint leave me for an instance

its 16 yrs by the clock
n its her 2 mske me mock .n its me givin her a new ..shock
its her the reason 4 my survival,'
its my heart that speaks
i take every breath on hers that beats,
her smallest words
leave a mark
i keep thinking over and over them
when am alone crying in d dark
she was d first person
to whom id share my secrets
she was my santaclause
shed heal me wen i was hurt
she did all dis without a cause
she is a mother and they have their own kind
but d best ones mine
she s the 1st essay tpic i eva got
bck den i rote sweet things n i forget..but she
yet clings on 2 those memories
smiles at those cards,paintings n kiddie stories,
she taught me how 2 wok n tok ..go get my dreams wud get a clot
i am high today,n work eachday just 4her
she makes me fail 100 times..i don think am worth her sumtimes
i 4get 2 thank her 4 such a life but den i attempt the stife
i hav no reason 4 dis behaviori
its age diffrence is wat i say
but deep down inside we like living dis way
i have no words
shes my god ,my prayer
coz shes sum1 hu knows me well
accepts me even when i break her trust n make her dwell
shes an institution by herself molded outta nothing
2 make my life a heavenly painting
i thank god each day
am the luckiest is wat i say
theres a desire 2 make her feel d same
2 tell her my dreams n life ahead will keep her away 4om any shame
i cross my heart dis is no game
i wanna c her there ffel proud and shout
standing there amidst the crowd.....

CAN I...

can i b like a bird
4 a day?
i want 2 fly across the sea
will u b beside me ?
i can go on like this..

can you listen 2 the waves?
or the wind blowing far?
can i hol your hand for a day?
and n du all the things i cudnt ?
i wish i could be here all my life
coz some how it seems 2 short
n you seem 2 mean alot ..

i have nothing exept my eyes 2 capture these moments
beauty fills the air
the blowing strand of ur hair

i suddenly feel secure
i no i can crazy n carefree for sure
where ever u r romance fills in like d wind
i feel no anger no pain 4 his sin

words seem shy 2 describe
wat lies in my heart
i no something greats gonna start

can i be with u all along
inspite of being so rong
can i walk that extra mile
even if its for a while

can i hold ur hand and run
to catch de beauty of the rising sun
i want my life 2 follow this trend
till my life can see an end....

DARK LATERN

Just imagine urself walking in a maze of lanes near the beaches of kerela...when suddenly you come next to no where ..Theres this long chimney and deserted mill look alike structure infront of u,suddenly sumthing inside tells u, u gotta go there .You lay back seing the vast for an entrance when ur eyes go on a broken staircase made of rusted iron... you take your bag and go in there a small door leads 2 a thick darkened passage...you some how imagine bats n ghosts 2 b present there..u feel ur walking 2 hell...tou den hear some noises u follow dem n reach another door...u gather ur guts gulp ur fear doen n enter..
suddenly u see a conjusted room filled with children...in white robes all looking at u scared...n only 4 candles present there...and ur eyes r burning now...d reason lies infront of u now....your fumbled up wen suddenly a fat man pulls u with ur collar...u have no xplaination 2 b there...late...u have no explaination n excuse 2 tell ur boss how difficult it is 2 walk thru that passage each day ,how hard it is 2 work there when all ur other frends r playin ...how much u face BEING AN EMPLOYEE OF D FIRECRACKER INDUSTRY..wen ur age is just 12 n death awaits u 3yrs 4om now....
you rub ur eyes and u no not wether ur work harms u or not..u go du ur job so tht another child can b happy ...so tht mayb u dont celebrate diwali but others with rich pockets can, in fun n floric...so that that fatman earns profits n so that u get money 2 take back home...u make those crackers...so that u make a latern out of sumones life when its yours burning in the dark...
Sounds freaky rite..well its the truth every boy n girl workin in that industry there goes thru crap ..making a dark latern outta life..the least u can du is not buy or burn these crackers..coz not only does it coz pollution but also bcoz ive given u a heavier reason 2 du so ...
thank you
tans

toks after patriotic film

well ive seen a lot of those...4 d country..bhagat singh,mahatma gandhi,black friday,nayak,n range de basanti...yet d best one...
i remember coming outta d movie thinkin hard abt life ,holding back my tears,thinking abt d last dialog..there r two types of men those that go to their deaths shoting n those that go in silence...but den i meet d 3rd kind..(n i guessed it wud b those tht went there laughin)...d movie was brilliant...screenplay,dialogs,music,camera,direction,stunts,d backdrop,d sets ,makeup
fantagonestic ya..simply pentifabulous,,d script rox coz i was ritten by sum1 up thr...dont b shocked d riters not dead..just tht its based on bhagat singhs story(so tried 2 b philosophical by sayin gods d riter)..nyway came outta d theatre hearing gaalis from d audiences ..sayin we shud b totaly indian ya..AM NOT LEAVING THIS COUNTRY,NO FORIEGN BRANDS...N AM NEVER GONNA TOLERATE RUBBISH WITH DIS COUNTRY...LETS GO KILL R PRINCIPAL HE EATS MONEY....ALL THESE MIXED CONVOS..running around...ill make a difference n at d same time throwing d crushed coffee glass on d road..n sayin lets go 2 mc donalds man..how hypocritish*...u no we often say we r 2 small 2 du anything..i mean we all r selfish wanna du something tht can get us money n loads coz living is expensive ya..4 basic needs ppl struggles 4 yrs ..hunting 4om here 2 der 4 jobs,gettin into corruption coza ur failures,leading 2 disloyalty.frustration..we r so buzy tht at d end we go like whr du we have the time 2 du anything 4 d country...so ppl heres how u can make a difference ..got this after 2 days of thinkin ...1-du any profesion but wid honesty,passion,patience,b focused n dont hav that chal ta hai attitude..u represent ur country in every act ..japnese take 1hr while we take a day 2 complete their wrk coz they utilize their resources n wrk their best in tht r n r organised
2-dont litter around ...we 2gethr can make a differnce can du r side of d duty if others dont
3-dont back bite abt the country it lowers its value all d time especially in ur own eyes
4-wateva u du say teach , director ,student or a marketinhg hed..try showing d best of ur country.thru speech n doin..dig more in dis country ull find a 100 ppl ready..utilize ur resources ...thrs a lot waiting 4 u here its physiacl atributes n mental stregth of ppl
5-b honest n stop bribing ya..(4 all those signal break drivers),n secular n not a communist
6-treat patriotism like ur religion
7-wen i here my frends aspiring 2 bcum directors ,air force pilots,n no1 businessmen, i love it coz dey dream big n wanna make a difference dey want india 2 reach hi gh but even if ull du something small its cool just make sure ur a helpin hand..uno
8-try n b a bit daani n donate ur time wid street kids n their welfare
9-sit n rite or think n du something abt us ..n r tommorow
10-if ppl rite this on post plz read it even if its boring
its easier sed than dun i no ..aditi i no ud want me 2 b a polition all d more..but its a wheel n if i cant du tht i can definately du these small things ..i cant find an end uno am yet 2 figure things myself u also think ..n mayb think wethr u shud rite a comment or no ...
50000 things u dig in dis ocean of opportunites n risks
100000 things of ur intesest
150000...things tht can make a difference....they all r at fingers distance...
WAKE UP

H@!RcUt$

i entered d college classroom half sleepy ..but i forced my self 2 do so..coz it had bin xaclty a months since i did tht...and as i entered i saw the most freakiest thing on planet earth,...a guy...welll thats not the freaky part ...but this guy walks 2 me with hair colour..thts golden n face color tht can b seen only in d day or broad day lite..n it was not juss golden colored it was in patches like mushrooms that we saw in cartoons...lol...it was hilarious i looked at him as he asked me "hey tanvi hows my hair...?" n am like ahhhh...i tilted my hed 4 a laugh
how guys n even girls just experiment with their hair..lord i mean its cool i luv duin tht i go 4 a new hair alomst every mnth or 2 ...n then get yelled at by my frends 4 a fast air growth n recieve reactions dat make me smile sumtimes n frown 2...
but u no i think whre colouring n hairstyles r concerned dont copy ppl..du wat suits ya...i mean long hair dusnt suit all n being blond jusnt look cool on alll...ya abeer thts 4 u ...n ppl if u need a hair treatment go fast ...(vk u need 2)...
uno hair defines a lot about a person ...d taste especially...
ppl suddenly hav dis obsession where ppl get haircuts n style their hair according 2 stars ya..if u dont hav d same face cut dont du so..
on the contrary there r ppl hu dont du anthing 2 their hair n have tht same boring thing 4 life...(baani i no this is aplicable but i understand ur position so not 4 u )
its not tht am givin ull gyan on haircuts ..but just sharing a personal observation
4om oil sunk hair n sadhna cuts 2 saif haircuts 2 aamir khan imitaters actually aamir insults..hair cuts r an observation in locals 2 ...
just make sure u look in d mirror,ask a frend ,n dont spent grans curling,staightening(rather burning n ruining ur hair) aditi mite agree...., spikin ,gelling ur hair like hell(hemant n rohit..cant live without it can ull?)juss leave it natural n inovate it
n ya keep outta those fengsue haircut tht cost dollars
juss keep it cool n yet stylish...now i bettr shut up b4 d parlour owners find more points 2 get me under their knifes or think of running a case on me
have fun..take care
tans

"I"

i ....whr ur life begins n ends
i ...a word tht shows u more important than the world
i...a word before u appologize
i..a word before u confide
i ...you living inside

i ..a shout a prayer
i ..a recognition ..saviour
i..an unsolved mistory
i ..a part of history
i ..a mixture of everyperson u meet
i..a hand in me u seek

i..a feeling of belonging
i..somone accompaning u always
i..ur inner worth
i..a rebirth

yet wat is this i ?
wat is behind dis face dis disgrace..
wat r u by just bein i ...
each line is a question
with no answer...why?
look in deep inside...wat am i without this name?
is it an exixtance or am i a victim...an encircled part of life's game

i leaves u with unanswered statements..
i...leaves u 2 say those witful sinful comments...
i.. leaves u with who u actually are
i ..leaves u with urself for an hour
far far and far