Sunday, April 16, 2006

GOD WAT PPL SAY WEN FRUSTRATION STRIKES...

was i little upset today wondering why....i juss needed to be alone for a while u no ...but instead i was to attend guests studying the art of manners or perhaps fakness i donno...well i was even more irritated as boredom seemed to become my best friend since a week...college's over and i cant meet my friends coza guets n tuitions...a little dry for me.
god thinking...(n her frustration toks began)
..so i did wat i thot would change my mood...had a bit of chocolate after which i was guilty so went for a jog...I sudeenly missed me being on my terrace so i did so...went up in darkness feeling the breeze looking around lisening to the voice of silence....the laughter of my memories with my friends ,thinking about the dilema of my life....
gods comment..(i must say once she starts thinking...its an ocean she dives into)
Beautiful i must say..i meet ppl resently in my life hu make me reflect my behavior ,hu made me think that theres more to life then fun,studies n family,its oneself ya,ones behavior..
god
(basically GETTING ME A LITTLE BORED).
i was lookin around at moving cars buildings all 4om the top.looking at the stars that seemed less b4 but wen i looked carefully they were inumerous ya...i began to introspect ya...were we like the buildings imovable yet there or like the moving cars that keep changing spped n lights...or were we like the sky above...vast secretive silent or did all this juss reflect the types of personalities one comes across....some imovable ,some movin on ,some noisy some dark n secretive like the sky...clueless that i am ...i remembered a few articles about the country oneself ,expections,lonelinesss,pain,friendship..buzzing my brains...wat r we as just alone ???is it good or bad to b alone is a debate ya
i called a frend spoke to him n laughed but he had to hang up,then i called another pal she was out ,n i called 3 more,n i realised wen ur in need of sum1 to lisen to ur trash or give way to ur creativity n wild thots theres nothing but the wild air....i remeber my skool days my pranks,studies ,test ,ragin ,bunking,lord it was fun,one of my best memories ,i thot with moisten eyes,missed all that
god to himself(bas kuch bhi hua toh senti ho kay start thinking about skool,actually thats good atleast ur mind diverts from the fites at home or with friends..helps during mood swings which are apparently my fault ha...)
god wat hav i bcum. started thinking about life ,emotions ,n my ambitions alot,am changing becoming and more acceptable to changes wondering wether its just a phase or is life always unfare...may be not...i sat there on my terrace yet looking around trying to find a meaning to my life ,a reason to my bordom,a shiver down my spine,with a dash of lonliness and a smile,i looked up n sed got ur smart,mean irritating ,and u put me in the worst situations of life...but there are others hu need u more,,as far as am concerned i seem to love u,i promise this is a phase ,i suddenly remembered something ,god i asked for the best family,u gave me the worst,i asked for the best friend u gave me the most difficult one,i asked for the best lover u gave me the most difficult one...god u gave me not wat i asked for but all that i needed....
god-thanks thoda toh consider kiya..baccha why u take tension and praise me n then juss bore me with sayings i only come up with,)

began humming its my life n went down the stairs...wait a minute 4om a small fite to buildings to cars ,to life to god...bas blame it all on him...wat ppl r like i tell u ,frustration makes u go 4om antartica to kimbactoo ...lord save the world...ohh no not again..wonder wat god has to say...donno how r minds work .. well this shall pass to ...
gods last words-i have given all the same gift" mind,"i have been thrown at by my devilsh friend called destiny...we both work together n i guide u during a problem but wat u make of this journey called life is nearly u ,ur the mind ,ur the master,often ppl think am the one hu dus the good n bad ...but think hard if i was so then y wud i make life to entertain me with my creativity..no we r three of us that work ..u me n destiny...all have highs n lows its the way u take it gal...but am glad ur growing ...)

4 comments:

underperformer said...

nicely dun gurl...it tkes a lot 2 knw wt xctly goes inside n cums out on dis kinda blog...hell u got sum clean brain veins dre eh...lolz...newayz u don knw me i don knw u...bt jus felt like mkin an efort 2 let u knw bout da gud stuf ur chugin along hre...aite
david

underperformer said...

nicely dun gurl...it tkes a lot 2 knw wt xctly goes inside n cums out on dis kinda blog...hell u got sum clean brain veins dre eh...lolz...newayz u don knw me i don knw u...bt jus felt like mkin an efort 2 let u knw bout da gud stuf ur chugin along hre...aite
david

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Nick Sharma said...

nice !!!!!u shud hav bcum a writer!!!